Thursday, October 13, 2016

Grey turned one

Grey turned one this Summer, here's his birthday video!

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Grey Douglas- Birth Story part 2

So on July 14th 2015 Cam and I decided to go ahead and book a C-section. When I called my Dr's office to make the appt. they told me I could just do it at the hospital the next day and to just not eat or drink anything after dinner and to go to Labor & Delivery first thing in the morning.

So July 15th 2015 Cam and I dropped off Jackson at my brothers house and headed to the rocky view hospital. we assumed that my Dr's office had told them that we were coming, but when we showed up at Labor & Deliver and told them I was there for a C-Section they weren't expecting me.  Luckily it was the quietest day & they had no scheduled C sections so they said they could take me in right away to deliver this baby! It was pretty fun waiting in triage while they monitored the baby & gave me an IV, We felt like a celebrity couple as there were so many people there waiting on us hand and foot since it was such a quiet day. It also helped that all the residents had just started their residencies that week, and were super eager to have patient! 

After they determined everything was a go ahead they took me to the OR. Cam had to go get dressed up in his gown & mask and met me in there. All the Dr's and their residents explained what was going to happen and it was a very calm and peaceful environment. Very different from when I was being rushed to the OR for my emergency c-section with Jackson.  The nurse that was assigned to us from the beginning was amazing. Cam doesn't do so well around blood so she was really helpful for both of us!

When they were getting ready for the surgery I made one request to have Cam announce the gender of the baby since it was a surprise for us. So after they put up the curtain so Cam & I couldn't see exactly what they were doing,  To get the baby out takes about 5 minutes, so they started the surgery and I felt a lot of pressure on my chest. Apparently one resident had to literally put all her weight on my abdomen to get the baby out. The Dr also still had to use forceps as Grey's head was so big and they're only able to make the incision so wide. (Yup that kid's head was huge.. waay off the charts) After he came out our nurse told Cam it was ok to look and he could tell me if we had a son or daughter. Cam quickly glanced over and said "Yup that's a boy!" (I had a feeling the whole pregnancy that I was having  a boy).  Our nurse then went over to help clean him up & weigh him. 9lbs 7oz! They then put grey right next to me and Cam and I got to meet our new son!

It was nice having the all those resident there and having them not be rushed as the Dr was explaining what she was doing the whole time and really took her time closing me up. She did this closing stitch that's not super common as it more time consuming but it's literally left me with the tiniest of scars! She even cut out the old scar tissue for me! With Jackson it was a busier night and they were in a hurry so instead of sutures I got 10 staples. (that made for an awful recovery)

In the recovery room I was able to nurse Grey & that little boy latched on like a champ. I guess since i have to have c-sections the Lord blesses me with babies that can nurse. 

My mom was waiting right outside the recovery room and as soon as my waiting time was over she came in to meet our little boy!

We went up to our room for the next 2 days, which just happened to be the exact same room I was in with Jackson! So Grey & Jackson were born in the same OR and then spent the first 2 days of their life in the exact same room in the hospital! (cool huh).

It took us all morning to decide on a name. We had narrowed our boys name down to Grey Douglas or Arthur Murray. We obviously decided to go with Grey and Douglas is after my Grandpa Bennion.

After a few hours my parents brought Jackson to come see his new baby brother. I had boughten Jackson a present from his new sibling so when he came to the hospital he sat on the bed and looked at Grey but didn't really care to much about him. We took a few pictures as a new family of 4. Then I had Jackson open his present from his baby brother. Grey had given him a Rebel truck & figurine (from paw patrol) Jackson loooved it! he hopped off the bed and played with the Rebel truck for hours on the floor by my bed while the rest of us adored baby Grey!   

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Grey Douglas- Birth Story part 1

Grey has been apart of our family for over 3 months now & I figured it was time to write his birth story!

The night before Grey was born I wrote a letter to him, although at the time I didn't know it was a him.   So here's that letter.

A letter to my unborn second child.

It’s July 14th 2015, 10:30 at night. I’m laying in my bed thinking about your arrival tomorrow.  Thinking about everything I’ve been through that led me to this point.  When I was in labor with your older brother Jackson there was fetal heart distress. The medical team advised me that a C-section was my safest option, as Jackson would most likely endure complications if I continued to labor & have a traditional birth. I was super scared but all I wanted was for my baby to be healthy, and this was my best chance of that so I consented and Jackson was born via C-section.  The recovering was hard. Now looking back, I didn’t really realize how hard it was because it was the only thing I knew (and I guess the only thing I still know).

As Jackson got older your father and I knew that we wanted another child. I thought 2 years apart would be the perfect spacing, and that’s what I tried for. That’s when I learnt my first lesson- you can’t control when babies come. In April of 2014 I found out I was pregnant and I was ecstatic! It gave me a due date of beginning of January 2015- almost exactly 2 years apart. Then on mothers day of  May 2014 I went to the ER with severe cramping & bleeding to be told that I had miscarried.  I was absolutely devastated. I had planned so perfectly to have my first two children 2 years apart.  It took 6 months of negative pregnancy tests till I saw those two pink lines again. I know in hindsight 6 months is not a long time. But after suffering from a miscarriage it felt like a lot longer.

Ever since I found out I was pregnant it was difficult for me to accept.  I know you’re in there. I can feel you moving, I’ve heard your heartbeat, I’ve seen you on an ultrasound. But part of me for the last 9 months hasn’t accepted it. I’ve been so afraid that something will happen.  During my first trimester I was terrified of another miscarriage. Then once I passed the “safety” of 13 weeks, I was still terrified something would happen to you.  As I got closer to my due date I still feared that you wouldn’t make it through child birth.  In fact your Nana even asked me about why I hadn’t started nesting yet. I hadn’t set up a single thing for your arrival. She wanted to go through the baby clothes and wash them and get them ready for you arrival. I just broke down in tears and told her how I have a terrible feeling something is going to go wrong and I’m going to come home from the hospital with no baby and the last thing I want to deal with is putting away a bassinet & clothes & baby decorations.

Last week my Dr sent me for an ultrasound, apparently I’m measuring 44 weeks pregnant when I’m only 39.  At the ultrasound they took measurements of you, as best as they could with the technology they have and determined you’re a big healthy baby…. 99th percentile for height & weight with your head measuring off the charts (don’t worry your brother’s head also was off the charts).  With their predictions of your weighing over 10lbs and the fact that I was measuring so far ahead they labeled me as a high risk pregnancy.

Since Jackson was a C-section I was already somewhat high risk but the medical world was going to allow me to try to have a traditional labor with you (a VBAC).  Alberta health’s policy is to not induce.  So I needed to go into labor naturally with you, or they were going to do a C-Section.

My mother had all 5 of her children via C-Section as she was unable to go into labor naturally.  With Jackson I went 10 days overdue and had to be induced as I was not going into labor naturally. So I was really scared with you that I would not be able to go into labor naturally. I tried every trick in the book… walking a ton every day, bouncing on a medicine ball, eating pineapple & spicy food. I even used essential oils, acupressure points & more! Aaaannd nothing happened. Once I got to my due date I tried even more drastic measures to bring on labor, drank this nasty ‘Midwife Cocktail’….. twice! And still nothing. I finally resorted to drinking an entire bottle of Castor Oil, apparently a ‘fool proof ‘ way to go into labor when you’re overdue. And all these things did was make me a little sick & spend some extra time in the bathroom, but no labor.

So now at a week overdue I’ve had numerous consults with different Dr’s and specialists about the safest option for delivery for myself and for you.  I would love nothing more than to bring you into the world the “traditional” way but in the end I decided that a c-section would be safest for you & for me. This was not a decision I took lightly.  It was one that weighed heavily on my mind, one that I prayed about. I received blessings from your father & from your Grandpa Lee to help me to have clarity and inspiration to make the best decision for us.  

I love you so much already and can’t wait to see your face tomorrow.


Saturday, March 7, 2015

Jackson 1st birthday

so one of my friends out here in Saskatoon makes a slideshow video for her kids every year on their birthday, which was my inspiration for making Jacksons video on his second birthday, and i've gone back through all my photos from his first year and made another one...

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Happy 2nd Birthday Jackson

Happy Birthday to my baby boy Jackson.

Here's a little video I made of our year with him starting from his birthday last year. enjoy.

Monday, May 26, 2014

Road tripping USA

We were so lucky after Cam finished up his exams we got to go on such a fun family vacation! we flew into Vegas and spent the next day their exploring the strip and seeing all the resorts. It was fun seeing all the resorts, Jackson wasn't doing so well that day. He actually ended up throwing up on our way back to the car to head to St George. Once we got to my Grandparents in St George Jackson was just a grouch. I felt bad that they didn't get to see my happy giggly boy. We spent the next 2 days in St George.  My cousin and her husband drove down from provo to play with us their and we loved seeing them! One of the days in St George we drove to Zion's and hiked up Angels landing.  

After St George we headed to Page AZ to check out Antelope Canyon... so cool!!! We loved it, then we headed to the Grand Canyon.

This trip was so much fun... travelling with Jackson was interesting... he was really thrown out of his element and wasn't the best sleeper on this trip. needless to say Cam and I were both super tired after this trip. I think the next time Cam and I go somewhere we'll leave Jackson behind!

and now for picture overload... Enjoy :) 

(Bellagio Fountains)

(St George Temple)

(Hiking in Zion)

(Still Zion)

(Zion again...)

(Road trippin)

(exploring antelope canyon)

(Antelope canyon)

(The colorado river in Page AZ)

(Grand Canyon)

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Checking some things off our list....

Soo just over a 2 years ago i wrote a blog post with the start of mine and Cam's bucket list (see here ) .. I was just looking back at it, and I'm happy to report that we're making progress... 4 things off the list!

#17 (Go on a Church history tour) and #22 (see Niagara falls) we accomplished on our last family vacation ins August 2013

 (Peter Whitmer Farm)

(The Sacred Grove)

(Niagara Falls)

We were also able to accomplish #14 (Go to Las Vegas) and #20 (See the Grand Canyon) this past month!

I'll write a more in depth trip recap later... it's one I definitely want to remember. We had so much fun and learnt so much about travelling with a baby!!!